Friday, January 7, 2011

You have a problem, I don't!

I am getting so sick of people judging me... why is it that assuming that a fat person eats too much is socially unacceptable but assuming that a skinny person does not eat enough is okay?!?!? I used to get this crap in middle school and high school. Eventually, I grew into myself, gained confidence and looked back and laughed... I can say with 100% confidence that every person who ever talked badly about my weight/ appearance is extremely unattractive and clearly had jealousy problems.. Before you talk about how conceited I am and judge me off of a post about not judging, you should probably keep reading, asshole...

As everyone probably knows by now, I had a heart procedure a few weeks ago. It did not work, to say the least. I tried to get ahold of the doctor but of course he's super busy. You can be the best doctor in the world but if you have no time, you do me no good. Sooooo they got me in to see a nurse practitioner. (an overweight, nasty, man looking NOT A DOCTOR lady who gave me dirty looks from the second I stepped into her office) After the doctor called and had me put back on a heart monitor for 30 days and all sorts of new pills, I wanted to get my medical records and hopefully get a second opinion. Everything seemed great... The doctor had very detailed notes from all of our office visits and surgery. He explained every symptom to a tee. He emphasized that I am always happy and energetic and have a very positive outlook on life. He stated that I am well nourished, have healthy skin, great hair (thanks doc! I'll give you my hair girls number...) and that I don't let my health stop me... Then I got to the notes from the nurse practitioner... who is NOT a doctor... she had that I am a negative person, don't seem to take my illness seriously (does she want me to be depressed??), that I am angry and anxious... okay fine.. I don't care.. she judged me off of my response to surgery not working.. but it gets better... she put that I look like I am deteriorating, losing fat and muscle mass and that I clearly look ill. She compared me to that of an HIV or Cancer patient...

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To compare me to people that are literally dying because their bodies won't hold fat because they are terminally ill... It's a sad world. Especially when the ACTUAL doctor says that my weight is completely healthy.

PERHAPS MEDICAL SCHOOL WOULD HAVE TAUGHT THIS DUMB BITCH THAT YOU CANT HAVE SIZE D BOOBS IF YOURE STARVING YOURSELF! LOL Anyone who knows me knows that I have always been tiny and this is the most I have EVER weighed~

That is the first time I've heard that since a bunch of ugly ass, fat girls in school would give me shit for clearly looking a million times better than them...

Moral of the story: Just because you're fat does not mean I have a problem.. I do NOT make comments about anyones appearance until you talk about mine in a completely untrue manner. geeez. I'm not able to control my weight, just like you aren't able to control yours! Quit judging people off of their looks unless you want them to do the same...


  1. you go girl!!!!!!!!! wow!!! i have never been able to hold my weight up nor down and for it ppl judge i get oth ends of it.. so i know what everyone goes threw!!

  2. Well said <3 Looooooooooooove your blogs!! =] I hope you get to feeling better! (& go eat some fried chicken GAH! J/K J/K!!) =P

  3. Some people are just insecure, and it makes them automatically dislike those of us who are happy with ourselves. I am by no means skinny, but I have had the same reaction from people. It seems like the fact that they are not happy causes them to want everyone else to be miserable with them. Oh well, like you said, it's their problem, not yours! :)